It could be very fundamental like love, affection, friendship... the question keeps arising in me Are We "Trespassing" in someone's life, however close the relationship could be.. A wonderful feel if expressed even in a whisper to your very loved one like "Look at the Beautiful Rising Sun" - Is it "Trespassing into their Privacy" Did you snatch the quietness with which the other person would have enjoyed the scene - may be... "Can I be of some help" - Did you snatch away the Spirit of the MAN to stand up on his own and develop the confidence to face the world......
Looks like Perfection, Anxiety, fear, micromanage is a wonderful combination of oneself that you are already or soon a candidate ready to be termed as a " Control freak" May be will try to appreciate as how others are doing things better than oneself to neutralize it. Thanks to my wife who brought this out..
Was Watching a Movie totally engrossed.. Movie a sensitive one and not an Action packed or Graphic intense.. I heard my Partner telling my son " He is so intensely watching the movie and he doesn't understand a word of the language the movie is".. Ya Very True.. I realized it after I heard the Comment.. This triggered the Very fundamental and basis of human existence.. Value of Intelligence, Value of Heart.. Mind Body and the soul.. May be I was listening to the " so called Movie" with my heart and it had no barriers and absence of Intelligence.. Absence of Mind.. Enjoyed the movie till I heard the comment and then Intelligence said " You don't know this" dropped it.. In-fact expressions of life, do they do the languaging away.. May be Always.. but do we Realize it.
Picture by Prachi Jalan, age 6
It is a brand New Mall. Very Bright and Colourful. Each store looks like a celebration. People are walking tall, hope and faith in every step. Saw the same at the industrial trade fair last week. Growth. Both are interlinked like Star and the Grass
As I start writing this, I ridiculed the heading and especially the word "own" .. The owning and guest are two beautiful words and kept asking myself " don't they oppose" ... Yes.. Be a Guest and Be at Home.
I waited for this coordinates for 38 years and the moment arrived.. The child in me jumped and it was as if I moved all the way back.. Everything was familiar, very comfortable as it has passed. No Anxiety for you know the answers, You have lived thro it.. Safe Past.. Now the reality, the Truth happened.. After a real long wait, it fell flat taking away all the Spirits in a second where my wait from now on became nothing of a looking forward positive feel but one where it has left a distaste. This is not the first time somewhere it was a wait of 10 yrs Some 15 but this was the longest and the very same happened... This wait was a loving burden which I carried.. What I hold in my memory and what others hold may be very different. Expectations don't match or Are we not taking what is so beautifully available in the present.
I meet them live where the other person left me.. Same smell, Same feel, Same love, Same hatred and everything as fresh as that day or those days. Not just a thought ...it is .. Ya IT IS.. as if it is Real Time.. May be different for him and his memory, Totally different... That's the way.. MOVE ON.. No more setting up expectations and no more bragging on remembering vivid past in micro and being very descriptive..
Did I look for affection. Mother was always duty bound. So is the partner.. Am I being sissy hiding under the past Sweet memories ...
Abstractness is difficult to explain and extremely tough if one sets up an expectation here too.
I keep Wondering why Relationships go away.. Do you have them first of all.. Is the Tittle above an answer...
