Drop the Intelligence

Was Watching a Movie totally engrossed.. Movie a sensitive one and not an Action packed or Graphic intense.. I heard my Partner telling my son " He is so intensely watching the movie and he doesn't understand a word of the language the movie is".. Ya Very True.. I realized it after I heard the Comment.. This triggered the Very fundamental and basis of human existence.. Value of Intelligence, Value of Heart.. Mind Body and the soul.. May be I was listening to the " so called Movie" with my heart and it had no barriers and absence of Intelligence.. Absence of Mind.. Enjoyed the movie till I heard the comment and then Intelligence said " You don't know this" dropped it.. In-fact expressions of life, do they do the languaging away.. May be Always.. but do we Realize it.

The Mall

Picture by Prachi Jalan, age 6

It is a brand New Mall. Very Bright and Colourful. Each store looks like a celebration. People are walking tall, hope and faith in every step. Saw the same at the industrial trade fair last week. Growth. Both are interlinked like Star and the Grass

Be a Guest in your Own House

As I start writing this, I ridiculed the heading and especially the word "own" .. The owning and guest are two beautiful words and kept asking myself " don't they oppose" ... Yes.. Be a Guest and Be at Home.

Awaiting

I waited for this coordinates for 38 years and the moment arrived.. The child in me jumped and it was as if I moved all the way back.. Everything was familiar, very comfortable as it has passed. No Anxiety for you know the answers, You have lived thro it.. Safe Past.. Now the reality, the Truth happened.. After a real long wait, it fell flat taking away all the Spirits in a second where my wait from now on became nothing of a looking forward positive feel but one where it has left a distaste. This is not the first time somewhere it was a wait of 10 yrs Some 15 but this was the longest and the very same happened... This wait was a loving burden which I carried.. What I hold in my memory and what others hold may be very different. Expectations don't match or Are we not taking what is so beautifully available in the present.
I meet them live where the other person left me.. Same smell, Same feel, Same love, Same hatred and everything as fresh as that day or those days. Not just a thought ...it is .. Ya IT IS.. as if it is Real Time.. May be different for him and his memory, Totally different... That's the way.. MOVE ON.. No more setting up expectations and no more bragging on remembering vivid past in micro and being very descriptive..
Did I look for affection. Mother was always duty bound. So is the partner.. Am I being sissy hiding under the past Sweet memories ...
Abstractness is difficult to explain and extremely tough if one sets up an expectation here too.

Relate & Relationship

I keep Wondering why Relationships go away.. Do you have them first of all.. Is the Tittle above an answer...

format - present continuous

continuous formatting of one's self - natural 

Scared .. Huh ...

You are almost half dead, if you don’t express yourself now, when will you… whom are you afraid of .. my dad asked me yesterday… He is in his early eighties and I am in my early fifties.. what a hard hitting statement.. the old man meant it.. he still writes 14 hours a day and doing well for himself.. I don’t read much of his writing though.. In fact I don’t read at all.. he was encouraging me to write … a short novel and he himself being a journalist and having authored many novels in the local language in southern India… he believes I have some strength to write… I have scribbled here and there and not really communicated much.. I am not too sure… am I afraid.. of expressing myself… a new rage came in to me and said. … are you afraid of expressing yourself… what are you afraid of… is this a mental block or your personality… BEING AFRAID… oh .. No man , thoughts don’t flow… there is no beginning , no mid story line , no ending to .. then what is the point in expressing… I can write for my pleasure.. tear of those pages or push the file into recycle bin and forget about it.. or push it into my blog and I am sure the vault there is super safe.. it is no man’s land … no visitors.. a quite corner and I can read when I want to and “ afraid of” .. did he touch a point of “expression “ and I kept asking myself the root of expression, the desire to express… sometimes you don’t express at all and Be Still… do you say.. communications are all gone… R the communications noisy… are all the days like your Monday Morning. There is going to be a fusion of combined energies.. energy to communicate and the energy to stay STILL… both at the same time.. nice to imagine.. at absolute stillness I am sure your potent is at the Peak… it is at the very very root … like my famous seed which is struggling to sprout… I am not alone, I am sure everyone needs to package their product.. be it you e commerce initiative or your mission as a teacher… express what… Is it fiction where you drive people into fantasy and you make a couple of bucks and live happily ever after or you write where you don’t care about a single reward and may be after many years you go away… some one picks it up and says .. WoW.. opposites.. Extremes they met .. True..