Monday, December 1, 2008

Small Small Big Things

Pic by Prachi Jalan, Age 6
The Speaker said  Small Small Big things and later corrected to Small Small things... May be it was a slip of his tongue with reference to the context at that point of time..  The thought kept lingering in my mind.. My mind kept on the earlier version Small Small Big things.. Is it like Deeper and Higher like in Spiritual frame or Is it like the Atom, the smallest can create an effect which could be quite the opposite and as large as the Universe.. Small Small Big.. 

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Man Next To You May Be God

2 days over this week end looked very eventful, we made wonderful candles at home.. something pushed me to make candles..  very divine experience, brought the family together, maid left her work and wanted to watch what we were all up to.. child like interest which came from no where kept the whole of Saturday afternoon rhythm with very positive energies and when the candles were made, I wanted to correct it by saying, candles were born, 

Yaa, I felt there was much more to making the candle.. materialistic if it was wax, melting, pouring, burning.. making them, it will sound like an event - the real candle making to me was loosing all your time to it , the it is IT.. without knowing you have totally surrendered effortlessly to the making, That time, I was able to connect. really connect to the existence,, like everything one would realize after it passes and one would reach an ecstatic state if realizes during..  you can accept someone far away, may be decades or millions or mythological, may be they are so pure , may be no sound. only imagination  u cannot feel them.  it is a pity someone who comes in close contact u will miss. real alertness in the centre. i say it again and again.. right moment is required... it cannot be forced. even saints fail to recognize this, however physically they are close to their teacher. May be they start judging, may be the rebel in them tells them.. "NO NO".. I like saints who are rebels. But they have to complete their cycle.. they cannot be a rebel and not a saint.. may be more, In India they call them gyani.. may be that which is original is born out of this NO NO , may be that is why newer things are born.  let go let go let God.. don't force anything, it could be anything.. mind or body or whatever.. i am looking at sound as chemistry not physics.. between the body and soul is my mind... after all, your biology is the final receipt ant of a sound, be it physics or chemistry .. drop your mind.. Existence is a mystery. it is total. beauty how can u analyze it. can u apply logic to that. Man wanted to go to a shiva temple.  The woman there is also an ardent follower too. she asked Why? . he is mystic, he wanted to go, simply Ya I want to go. He had no reason, no celebration, no nothing.. She is purely logical .. her mind wanted to ask Why.. she knows the maths behind it. His heart wanted to go.. his mind was absent. may be he smelt it, may be felt it, may be there was a soul. may be some search.. the gap between mind and body. I saw a carnival there. Heart wants and another mind asked why? .... do u have to desire for God is another question..  this can propel anyone into another dimension of thought. may be .. a state without information, without knowledge.. no light, total darkness, contradictions are possible here and both the poles are true, absolute. Pendulum clock and the quartz movement tells you the physical time.YOU in all capital letters that the life is moving. You are told time is moving, You get tired, you feel hungry, more driven by clock, more than the animal in you. Try no clock for a couple of days, you will be surprised at the time you eat and sleep.. don’t block the sunlight , do nothing, let it be as it is. Loose yourself. I lost my Buddha today.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Unable to write

Why did I get this picture of Buddha on my home page. Every time I look at the picture, something tells me just 'be'. This is the 'n'th attempt and this keeps happening. I am struggling hard to get over the power of those eyes, calmness of the picture. No exaggerations. My heart melts, tears roll down, feeling connected. I need to have the peace and still would want to write. May be.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

The Throw

My daughter came 1st in shot put in her school. She doesn't look that strong by any physical appearance, in fact small frame and from some angle looks puny. Asked her How could you do this and I could see some of them who looked stronger. She quietly told me, there is more to the throw, it is just not physical alone.. Ya I told myself .. it applies to all.. not just physical. May be everything in life is a combination. The mind is not physical.. it exists...it controls.. thoughts which come from outside, .. the part other than what exists on the surface, exists.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

That's U

Last Sunday was a day when I ever in my life understood what THAT means. I became that, I dont want to use all caps and make a vulgarity out of the super that, neither I would like to cage it within double quotes and suffer. How is it to stay awake and yet get lost in where you dont remember most of the day. End of the day energy level is so high, u could do it again and again. Oh my love, I saw the moon , the clouds, earth, rain, sun, music, heard the silence, and no big deal to some one who has not tried painting not being a good painter, some one who attempted to sing and is not a trained singer. It is very naked. Try it, I preach, He said roll , I rolled, He said be with yourself I dropped my mind. I dont have to think. When you are that you dont do anything, everything happens. He .. Who? Certain treasures are hidden. Deep, so deep He becomes U.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Attachment - Is it Good or Bad

My friend kept feeding a calf on her neighbours little farm regularly and looking forward to that everyday. May be getting attached to the little one where the calf used to run towards her as she goes everyday with bananas to feed the littleone. Gave a nice name Sweetie to the calf and enjoyed every moment. .. I teased her saying it is the Bannana conditioning, she avoided even such friendly teasing and her eyes said NO, dont even mention that and believed the calf had a special place in its hear for her. Last couple of days the calf wasnt' there and on last Monday she realized that the owner of that calf sold it off and did not know who bought it. Oh Man, I was even worried when she described this and told myself she should'nt get any further emotional on this issue. Now she starts searching for the calf taking hints from every point of this transaction and find the calf couple of miles away where it was about to be to taken to a distance farm miles away and the trader was collecting all of them for a shipment to happen. The way she explained the joy, tears would roll out of any human. She buys the calf back & as there is no definite physical place in her house hands it over to the old owner and says "keep it and please allow me to visit my sweetie daily".

Are attachments Good or Bad. Emotionally liking somebody or something is very different from attachment.
By assigning "good or bad" to something, I perceive that I am creating an attachment to it and thereby perpetuating the conditions that lead to suffering. Comment ..




Friday, August 1, 2008

Joy & Happy

Joy Joy Joy Joy Joy Joy.,,,, Happy Happy Happy Happy ... Keep on saying this, need not be aloud. Within yourself. whenever you get to remember this. keep it going,,, Lot of fun. Without you realizing you will gently smile

Friday, July 25, 2008

Breakfast Continued

A thought came by which keeps telling me that everything is an event and nothing is a product. Extension to the bowl, spoon we use to eat the cereals for breakfast which is actually many many events coming together. Does it mean WE are not any product, but an event... Earlier Breakfast article ,,,

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Borrowed Canvas

Normally unconscious collaborates with the Conscious without friction. One day I posed myself as a painter, my daughter and my wife can do decent painting. I have never tried it. I borrowed a canvas from them painted direct acrylic colour. No sketch. No plan. All I wanted to call it was '"State of Mind" I imagined my subconscious, brought it to a conscious level painted.. whatever came. I enjoyed the freedom when I did that. Complete to myself, no fear, no shame, no nothing, it looked like a mind which wanted to say it all at the same time. Painting is hiding somewhere. People at home said, I can do something different.. May be I am gonna have the guts to frame it...

Monday, July 21, 2008

My office People Attended a 2 day reflection course

A couple from my office spent 2 days in a life transforming program. they sent me a note on their learning...

  • Eliminate Starting trouble i.e. gap between wake up and getting up.
  • Do whatever you want to do, if, You would like your child to follow the same. You would do it in the presence of your parents. You would do it in the place of worship.
  • Do not get disturbed by small incidents.Keep everything simple, do not complicate matters.Always think positively. Never allow negative thoughts in your mind.
  • Think before you say anything.Do not promise without knowing what you are promising.
  • Power of man is the power of mind,Power of mind is the power of subconscious mind.Power of subconscious mind is the power of subconscious beliefs. Subconscious beliefs are built by making and honouring commitments.Do not commit. If committed, do everything possible to honour it.
  • Always think of your teacher, be in the company of good people, always have good thoughts (Buddham saranam kachaami, Sangam saranam kachaami, Dharmam saranam kachaami).Concentrate on one process at a time with intensity.Expectation + Non Acceptance è Leads to Anger.Expectation + Acceptance è Tolerated.Be organized. i.e. Time for anything and anything in that time, Place for anything and anything in that time.To beat it, be at it.Control your Body, Mind / Thoughts and your emotions.
  • Do not get angry with anyone. Communicate till he/she gets satisfied/clarified. Through communication make him/her to understand. If not, learn how to communicate and then continue.Calm & peaceful mind will hold and create more thoughts than a turbulent mind.
  • Don’t fear, just face it.
  • Keep faith in you, believe in you

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Reflect - May be You would like it

Trying to be with myself, asking whether the sync between my associations is happening.. the way it should, where at the end of it, does these associations leave a peace within myself.. even though technically I am not supposed search outside and go within.. Dialogue to myself on a Sunday morning will be very different from the Dialogue on a Monday morning though. I am trying to dwell on the state of mind & peace within.. Actually concept of I will play a role when one really starts going in deep within.. the heart, mind will need to peacefully co exist and the economies of everyday living will add, while you try to reflect as we are guided by the past with a clear uncertain future which you think we want to create.

I loose myself when I become that and the moment I am gonna loose, that very fine moment where it is yet to happen, it is not happening, may be if it happens it is not that... waiting..

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Special Needs Children

My wife works with Special Needs Children for the last 9 years.. This morning I asked her do you take it up with the parents if you see that their anxiety is a contributing factor where the child is now anxiety ridden... No, not exactly she said.. why they become anxious is a factor to look at and other factors and she kept adding too many technical details and I could not follow.. If you feel that pressure on parents at Home, Work, their anxieties, insecurities is a contributing factor or otherwise .. pl post your comments here..

Director in God

This morning I read somewhere that God is not a judge, he is like a Director in a movie - for the Director both Hero and Villan are equally important. ( There is a story when Pandavas went to Heaven - years after winning .. they found Dhuriyodhana already there !!! .. may be Krishna in you is handling the Arjuna in you and the Dhuriyodhana in you !!! ).. we go all the way to a temple and in front of the Deity we close our eyes - may be God is gently suggesting, Eh Man ! I am inside you - one can even give up the search and start appreciating the existence. inside u.. !! Saturday mood is good, weather is beautiful !!! looking for a great weekend..

Coffee Mug

I have a coffee Mug, which I always felt, I possess. Mine for too long. Yesterday I see My Mug with all the other coffee Mugs in the office. Oh No, unacceptable was my reaction. .. I wanted to ensure it is not gonna go anywhere. As I start pouring the hot water for my coffee, the Mug breaks, all happening within 2 minutes from the thought it is only mine.. I had the Mug.. It happens.

Student in Me

My son, student of Medicine called me and as usual asked him on his current course and he said that yesterday I saw in the Emergency Department and a lady came there who had consumed poison, and today I am in the autopsy department - same person dad... Oh Man , we don't have too many doctors in our family - tough to get to accept reality..

Friday, July 18, 2008

Breakfast

This morning as I poured milk on the cereals, I was amazed at the power of existence... It looks like the whole universe has worked for me to get the glass bowl, various grains and sugar in the cereal, the spoon, leave alone the trillion things which happen in my body when I need to pour, mix, take the spoon to the mouth, eat ... we are taking too many things for granted... emotional... existence

Thursday, July 17, 2008

My neighbour's 2 year old daughter

Amazing is her frame of mind, she has started prioritizing our meeting times. She has her own agenda. No more I have the liberty to pick her up whenever I want to. Says okay JJ bye. .. bye. buy chocki from markit.. shaking her head as if I have already agreed and she has taken the 1st bite of the chocki.. I see her now trying to get the little transistor ON ( I am one of the few who still hang on to the once fashion and the inthing) where there is only 1 battery and it needs 2 though. She is pushing it once to the right, trying to switch ON and seeing it is not working, now she tries to push it to the left and it is still not working. She tells me JJ cell markit.. with a smile worth a trillion... I never thought I would get a nice little kid just across our house, this little angel is the looking forward every evening when I get back from work. All great things come free. God thanks again,

Good News

Do you have a good News, you want to share.. I want to hear more and more good news.. Waiting Eagerly

I keep talking to Myself

Everything is going fine. Home, Office, friends all are doing fine. Children are doing Good. God Thanks. One little Question God, God Why did you choose me for everything so good. Thanks.